Category: medical care

several things…

By rights, there are several posts I should write but I don’t have the brain to do it so this post will be short takes on different topics glommed together. Sorry about that.

I am horrified by the US and Israel attack on Iran which included the assassination of many of their leaders, including the Grand Aytollah. I am also horrified by the couterattacks of Iran against many of their Middle East neighbors. None of this had to happen. In his first term, Trump walked out on a multi-country agreement that was keeping Iran from developing a nuclear weapon. If he had left it in place, there would not have been the pretense for these attacks now. I hope that Congress finds the courage to vote that this is not a valid use of presidential power; the US Constitution makes clear that only Congress has the power to declare war. Still, with the war underway, it will be difficult to stop it. I do think, though, that this constitutes grounds for impeachment. Unauthorized war certainly seems to fit the definition of a “high crime.”

If you need a brief break from the horror, you can visit my new (five-line) poem with Silver Birch Press. My blog post about it is here.

Yesterday, I got a COVID vaccine. Now that I am 65, I can choose to renew my protection more frequently. My last dose was in late August so that I had my strongest immunity for the Boiler House Poets Collective 10th anniversary residency several weeks later. Like all my other COVID vaccines, this was from Pfizer, which is fitting because B, T, and I all participated in the Phase III trial that led to its emergency authorization in the US in December, 2020. To my knowledge, T and I have never contracted COVID and I’d like to keep it that way, if I can. It is likely that I will be needing to travel to major medical centers in the coming months, so I thought it was prudent to re-up my resistance to COVID. While many people ignore the existence of COVID at this point, it is still out there infecting, sickening, and sometimes killing people, especially in the older demographic. I want to do everything I can to not be one of them, especially with so much else going on with my health.

While I can still get some reaction from the vaccine, it’s much milder than it was initially. I chose to have the shot in my right arm, which is already pretty severely affected by what appears to be thoracic outlet syndrome, so my right arm is very sore today. I’m also fatigued, but it’s hard to tell if the shot is contributing to that or not, as that has also been part of my hEDS symptoms for a couple years now.

There’s a lot more to say, but I don’t have the energy and focus to write more now. Wishing you as much peace and equanimity as you can find in the midst of all of this.

mass online

I had hoped to attend vigil mass yesterday afternoon but the level of dysautonomia, pain, and fatigue I was having made it inadvisable. It was cold and I didn’t think that I could handle the amount of walking and being upright involved, even if I went to a nearby church rather than my own church which is a further drive.

Instead, I participated in an online mass through Heart of the Nation. While a local station televises the mass on Sunday, I was able to access it online on Saturday. One of my favorite homilists was presiding and viewing online gives a bit more time so I got to hear more music than in the televised version.

Back during my mother’s illness, she used to watch mass on television when she could no longer attend in person and visitors from the church would bring her communion from time to time. Eventually, I was given a pyx so that I could bring the Eucharist to her myself. It is mentioned in this poem, first published by Wilderness House Literary Review:

In my purse

cheap pens I won’t miss if they’re lost
my wallet, heavy with too many coins
ibuprofen for headaches
a pack of tissues
hair ties for windy days
a dog-eared calendar
my license to drive
a crumpled shopping list
emergency cough drops
a pyx
my favorite mechanical pencil, extra lead
credit cards – insurance cards – loyalty cards
a laminated prayer card from my mother’s funeral

One of the blessings of the pandemic shutdowns for me was the re-discovery of online or televised mass when I couldn’t attend in person. It’s comforting to have that alternative on weekends like this one.

I may need to take it more often in the future if we can’t get better control of my symptoms.
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frustration

Since my hEDS diagnosis last week, I’ve been trying to arrange for a number of tests that my specialist ordered.

Some of the tests I was able to do on a walk-in basis and those went smoothly. I’ve been having trouble, though, with orders that had to be faxed. I’ve only been able to schedule one of the three tests, despite repeated phone calls and a few written messages.

It’s only been a week and a half, but I’m feeling really frustrated.

After the months and months of go-rounds of various specialists, waiting to see them, and waiting for the tests they ordered, I’m impatient for more information, in hope that we might actually be able to have some options to deal with my most troubling symptoms.

Deep breath.

More waiting, more phone calls.

What’s a few more days or weeks when we are dealing with something I’ve had my whole life.

PS: After I posted, I realized that today’s prompt for #JusJoJan was “impatience” so, yeah, guilty of that, too.

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aftermath of a busy weekend

This weekend, I did a lot of board/committee work for the Madrigal Choir of Binghamton, plus a rehearsal for spring outside gigs with our small group.

I had PT this morning and did a couple of errands but now I am lying down and expect to be in bed all afternoon.

With hEDS, these things can happen. You can sometimes tough your way through a couple of days or events but you wind up paying for it later.

It’s a balancing act.

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a diagnosis (finally)

While I would usually be posting on the Stream of Consciousness Saturday prompt today, I’m opting instead for doing an edited Just Jot It January post.

Okay, this is going to be more than a “jot” but will be something that I feel compelled to give an update to the usual crowd of SoCS participants.

Since March, 2024, I’ve been having a growing array of odd symptoms – I won’t bore you with the whole list – that have been interfering with my ability to function. The brain fog and fatigue have been especially problematic.

I’ve posted variously about these symptoms and their impact on my life. Along the way, I’ve been diagnosed with a number of conditions that affect a certain body part or system but have always felt that these different symptoms were related.

This week, I finally have an answer. I’ve been diagnosed with hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (hEDS). hEDS is an inherited connective tissue disorder. Because we have connective tissues throughout our bodies, it impacts many different parts and systems of the body. Each individual with hEDS has their own unique combination of symptoms which may change over time. While hEDS follows an autosomal dominant inheritance pattern, the specific genes underlying it have not yet been identified. Because there is currently no test that detects hEDS, it tends to be missed, especially because there is no medical specialty dedicated to connective tissues.

Just in case you were wondering how a 65-year-old gets an initial diagnois of a genetic disorder. My (embarrassingly large) number of medical practitioners have spent the last almost two years ruling out various diagnoses or diagnosing component parties of hEDS without putting all the pieces together. I’ve learned from patient advocacy groups that there are other people who were not diagnosed until their fifties, sixties, or even older.

I actually was pretty sure I had either hEDS or the related condition, hypermobility spectrum disorder (HSD), 19 months ago. A close family member was facing an unusual medical condition that required surgery and her doctor realized that her connective tissues were not responding in a typical way. She suggested that there might be a connective tissue disorder present and advised seeing a geneticist physician. In assembling a full family history and researching hEDS/HSD with my family member, I felt that my body made sense for the first time.

I was excited and told my primary care doctor, but she felt we had to rule out every other possible cause of my symptoms first. Even when my family member was diagnosed with hEDS last June and the genetic connection was clear, my medical team was still not making the diagnosis.

That changed when I was finally able to see a nurse-practitioner who specializes in integrative/supportive medicine. With my records, family history, symptoms, and physical exam, she was able to diagnose me with hEDS and, importantly, to order additional tests to help pinpoint the cause of my current symptoms. She also knows where to send me for treatment, which will be especially important if I need to have surgery.

hEDS affects more women than men, so, no surprise, the symptoms tend to be written off as stress- or hormone-induced. I particularly remember having to explain to a doctor that I could tell the difference between brain fog and writer’s block. I also faced skepticism that I could be this old without any medical professionals realizing I have a genetic disorder, but, as others have pointed out, that should be a reflection on them, not me. Education about inherited connective tissue disorders has been lacking in medical education but I am hopeful that new research will break through and raise awareness so that it’s easier for people with hEDS/HSD to be diagnosed and treated appropriately much earlier in their lives.

I am trying to do my part by sharing my story and accurate information. As my treatment plan develops, I’ll post about it.

I must say, though, that the people who have been most helpful to me have been my physical therapists. Although my lead therapist realized that I have a connective tissue disorder and has been helping me to strengthen muscles and improve my posture, along with heat, massage, and stretching, she isn’t allowed to make medical diagnoses. She is also happy that I finally have an official hEDS diagnosis. The hope is that the additional tests I will now have will give us more data on how best to address my symptoms.

Obviously, a genetic disorder like this can’t be cured, but we should be able to improve at least some of my symptoms. For now, it feels good to have validation that there are reasons why my body reacts as it does. No more doctors implying that it’s all in my head or that I just need to reduce stress. Maybe some of them will even be moved to learn more about inherited connective tissue disorders.

They may even find that there are a lot more of us than they realized…
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tired

I’m so tired today.

It’s been a week with a lot of medical stuff going on. I have some news that I hope to share but it will be complicated and I don’t have the energy to do it today.

Maybe tomorrow.

Or over the weekend.

Or next week.

Hoping it will make it into Just Jot It January, at least…

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SoCS: slowing down

I used to walk fast, partially due to having much shorter legs than spouse B so that even when he would slow down to walk with me, I’d still need to speed up.

Now, I am having a number of issues with my balance and need to slow down so I can concentrate on staying upright and walking relatively straight. Sometimes, I need B’s – or someone else’s – arm to help me stabilize. This is especially likely later in the day as fatigue also becomes a factor.

So, I’m slower these days but grateful to be able to be up and about, at least, on most days.

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shutdown aftermath, etc.

Vote for Democracy #49

(Photo by Lucas Sankey on Unsplash)

I’ve been struggling with health stuff again and unable to organize my thoughts well enough to tackle a post on the overwhelming state of affairs in the US but will make an attempt.

There was not really a path for the record-breaking government shutdown to have a good outcome, so it didn’t. The Trump administration cruelly shut off food assistance, even though there were funds available to continue. It did, however, highlight the truly terrible statistic that 1 in 8 people here struggle to get enough to eat. The vast majority of these are children, elders, disabled people, or employed adults. Many employers do not pay wages that are sufficient to cover the basic cost of living, so workers and their dependents need government assistance and/or charity to have enough food. This also means that, even after a lifetime of employment, many retirees don’t have enough income to survive and were never able to save enough to have a cushion for their retirement years. It’s a sign of how warped our society has become that so many are hungry in the richest country in the world. At least in the agreement to reopen the government through January 20, funding was secured for food benefits through September 30.

Meanwhile, it is unclear if the health insurance subsidies for Affordable Care Act marketplace plans will be extended. As people are trying to sign up for 2026 plans, the rates from the insurance companies have risen sharply without the subsidies in place, sometimes doubling, tripling, or worse, which will leave millions uninsured. This, in turn, will drive up insurance rates even higher, as hospitals and doctors will raise prices for people with insurance to try to stay afloat. More rural hospitals, which are already strained, may be forced to close. It’s disgusting that our country does not treat health care as a basic right, denying care to anyone without good insurance and/or mounds of cash.

There has been a lot of talk about who bears “blame” for the shutdown. To my mind, the fault lies with the Repbulicans in both the legislative and executive branches. The budget process should work through the Congressional committees to have the appropriation bills passed and in place for October 1, when the new fiscal year begins. Instead, Repbulicans insisted on ramming through their own proposals rather than negotiating with Democrats and Independents to craft appropriation bills that could pass under regular order. Even when Democrats tried to make proposals, Congressional Republican leaders and the President refused to negotiate. The Speaker of the House went so far as to not even call the House into sessions for weeks, time that should have been spent crafting budget bills so that they didn’t have to rely on short-term continuing resolutions to keep the government open.

Another major problem is that the Trump administration has not been executing laws that Congress has passed. How can Congressional Democrats and the general public trust that the Trump administration will spend the money that Congress allocates when they shamefully cancelled life-saving funds for USAID and other agencies and programs, even ignoring court orders?

There is a Constitutional way to deal with this, impeachment of the president and other members of the executive branch by the House and conviction by the Senate, but the current Congressional Repbulicans won’t take action against Trump, even when he is illegally usurping powers granted to Congress, not the President. Unfortunately, this traps the country in this hurtful, dysfunctional state until, at least, the next election.

It is possible that the Republicans could lost the majority in the House even before the midterm elections next November. If more Repbulicans resign, as Marjorie Taylor Greene plans to do in January, and seats are left open for a time period or if Democrats flip some of those seats, the Repbulicans could lose their majority and a new Speaker would be elected. A Democratic majority could launch investigations and might be able to find enough Repbulican senators to pass bipartisan legislation to better serve the country.

Meanwhile, concerned citizens will continue to protest, boycott, and raise their voices to call for their rights, liberty, and values to prevail, in line with our Constitution and laws. We have sunk so low in the functioning of our national government that it will be a long, hard slog to recover, but we will try. It will be difficult for other countries to ever trust us again, given the immense harm that Trump has perpetrated on the world. All the more reason to get to work now.

JC’s Confessions #33

being high-maintenance

In the first few seasons of The Late Show, Stephen Colbert did a recurring skit, then a best-selling book, called Midnight Confessions, in which he “confesses” to his audience with the disclaimer that he isn’t sure these things are really sins but that he does “feel bad about them.” While Stephen and his writers are famously funny, I am not, so my JC’s Confessions will be somewhat more serious reflections, but they will be things that I feel bad about. Stephen’s audience always forgives him at the end of the segment; I’m not expecting that – and these aren’t really sins – but comments are always welcome.

In recent months, I’ve become very high-maintenance.

Not a fan.

My style for years has been no-muss, no-fuss. My hairstyle doesn’t require blowdrying and products. I don’t wear make-up. My clothing style is simple. I can get ready to go out in five minutes or less.

I could spend most of my time and brainpower on more creative endeavors and helping others.

Now, it seems that taking care of myself has become a full-time job.

In attempts to improve my current state of health, there are physical therapy exercises daily and near-constant attention to my posture and head/neck position. Needed rest periods. An increasing complicated array of medications, including one that needs to be mixed in a full glass of water and drunk immediately – four times a day – which makes it a bit tricky if I have to be away from home for several hours. Trying to figure out what to eat and drink when a food recommended for dealing with one of my syndromes is excluded by another to the extent where I sometimes don’t know what to eat. Dealing with my AutoPAP machine. Fussing with dental care and retainers. Going to appointments and tests with so many specialists that I’ve lost track of them all and trying to get information coordinated among them and with my primary care doctor, because, of course, the practices, despite all the electronic records systems, can’t seem to do it. Doing research on the various symptoms and diagnoses and trying to piece everything together.

It’s time-consuming and frustrating and doens’t leave much energy or brainpower for the thousand things I’d rather be doing.

There is some hope.

Lately, my brain fog and fatigue have diminished and it seems that we are finally getting closer to a more comprehensive diagnosis and clinical outlook.

Maybe that will translate into an easier daily regimen.

I don’t think I will ever be low-maintenance again, but maybe medium?

new complications for COVID vaccines in the US

(COVID Photo by Martin Sanchez on Unsplash)

Last week, after reading a newsletter from Your Local Epidemiologist founded by Dr. Katelyn Jetelina, I got a COVID vaccination. I will be going to my annual poetry residency with the Boiler House Poets Collective at The Studios at MASS MoCA in early October and wanted my immunity to be as strong as possible while I’m there.

The newsletter had warned that there might be label changes coming from the US Food and Drug Administration that would impact the availability of COVID vaccines and that it might be advisable to get the vaccine soon, especially for people younger than 65.

I’m glad I took action.

Yesterday, the Food and Drug Administration changed the guidelines, making it more difficult for people under 65 to qualify for COVID vaccines without consulting their doctor. In response, CVS and Walgreens, whose pharmacies are a major source for vaccinations to the public, suspended giving any COVID vaccines to anyone in sixteen states, including mine, unless you have a prescription from a health provider. Part of the confusion is that the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention has yet to issue its guidance and just suffered the loss of its top leadership through firing and resignations, grounded in the fact that they were being pressured to put forward recommendations not backed by scientific research.

That’s what happens when you have a Health and Human Services Secretary like Robert Kennedy, Jr., who does not have a background in medicine and disrespects rigorous scientific inquiry.

The fact is that COVID-19 vaccines have been rigorously tested and are safe and effective, cutting down on infection rates and keeping most people from becoming seriously ill and needing hospitalization. Serious side effects are very rare, so the benefits of receiving the vaccine outweigh the risks.

Tragically, vaccines have been politicized in the US, which has cost lives. The death rate from COVID-19 for Republicans is higher than for the population as a whole because of this.

I urge everyone with questions to talk to a trusted medical professional about the research and science behind vaccines. Don’t fall for the misinformation coming from Kennedy and the people he has put in place at the CDC and FDA who disregard valid scientific findings.

You can also look for recommendations from medical associations, such as the American Academy of Pediatrics.

Don’t let misinformation keep you from taking the best care possible of your and your family’s health.