JC’s Confessions #33

being high-maintenance

In the first few seasons of The Late Show, Stephen Colbert did a recurring skit, then a best-selling book, called Midnight Confessions, in which he “confesses” to his audience with the disclaimer that he isn’t sure these things are really sins but that he does “feel bad about them.” While Stephen and his writers are famously funny, I am not, so my JC’s Confessions will be somewhat more serious reflections, but they will be things that I feel bad about. Stephen’s audience always forgives him at the end of the segment; I’m not expecting that – and these aren’t really sins – but comments are always welcome.

In recent months, I’ve become very high-maintenance.

Not a fan.

My style for years has been no-muss, no-fuss. My hairstyle doesn’t require blowdrying and products. I don’t wear make-up. My clothing style is simple. I can get ready to go out in five minutes or less.

I could spend most of my time and brainpower on more creative endeavors and helping others.

Now, it seems that taking care of myself has become a full-time job.

In attempts to improve my current state of health, there are physical therapy exercises daily and near-constant attention to my posture and head/neck position. Needed rest periods. An increasing complicated array of medications, including one that needs to be mixed in a full glass of water and drunk immediately – four times a day – which makes it a bit tricky if I have to be away from home for several hours. Trying to figure out what to eat and drink when a food recommended for dealing with one of my syndromes is excluded by another to the extent where I sometimes don’t know what to eat. Dealing with my AutoPAP machine. Fussing with dental care and retainers. Going to appointments and tests with so many specialists that I’ve lost track of them all and trying to get information coordinated among them and with my primary care doctor, because, of course, the practices, despite all the electronic records systems, can’t seem to do it. Doing research on the various symptoms and diagnoses and trying to piece everything together.

It’s time-consuming and frustrating and doens’t leave much energy or brainpower for the thousand things I’d rather be doing.

There is some hope.

Lately, my brain fog and fatigue have diminished and it seems that we are finally getting closer to a more comprehensive diagnosis and clinical outlook.

Maybe that will translate into an easier daily regimen.

I don’t think I will ever be low-maintenance again, but maybe medium?

political violence in the US

Vote for Democrary #45

(Photo by Lucas Sankey on Unsplash)

Last week was very difficult in the United States.

September 11th was the 24th anniversary of the Al-Qaeda attack which used hijacked airplanes as weapons against the World Trade Center in New York City and the Pentagon, headquarters of the US military, in Virginia. A fourth airplane was prevented from hitting Washington DC, most likely planned to target either the White House or the Capitol, when the passengers fought against the hijackers and the plane crashed near Shanksville, Pennsylvania, killing all on board but no one on the ground. There are solemn ceremonies at all three sites and people pause to remember those who were killed that day and those who were impacted by the attack, such as the responders who worked amid the wreckage and suffered health consequences.

This year, the Spetember 11th observance happened in the immediate reaction to the murder of Charlie Kirk, a 31-year-old right-wing firebrand, during an event at a college in Utah. Although Kirk didn’t hold elected office, this was considered political violence because he was a major fundraiser and influencer through Turning Point USA, which he co-founded when he was 18. Much of his activity centered on high school and college campuses. His work was considered crucial to the Trump/Vance victory in 2024 and he was close to Vice President JD Vance, in particular.

Violence, including political violence, is unacceptable to me and the vast majority of Americans. Kirk’s murder was immediately denounced by leaders across the political spectrum. While many people looked at this as being part of a spate of political violence in recent years, including the attack on two Minnesota state legislators and their spouses that left two dead and two seriously injured, the arson attack on Pennsylvanis governor Josh Shapiro’s official residence hours after he had celebrated a Passover Seder with family and friends, the two assassination attempts against then-candidate Trump, and the attack that seriously injured former House Speaker Nancy Pelosi’s husband when a man broke into their home looking for her, some Republicans, most prominently President Trump, blamed Democrats or those on the political left for Kirk’s death, even though there was no evidence about who the shooter was or what their beliefs might be.

This is especially upsetting coming from Trump, who fometted the January 6, 2021 attack on the US Capitol in an attempt to overthrow the election victory of Joe Biden and then pardoned all those crimes when he took office. Trump’s supporters had injured scores of police officers and sought to kill Democractic House Speaker Nancy Pelosi and Republican Vice President Mike Pence. This was a massive exercise in political violence whose implications continue to contaminate our national consciousness and discourse.

When the alleged shooter of Charlie Kirk turned himself in to authorities, it turned out that he is not affiliated with Democrats. He was registered to vote without a party affiliation but had apparently never actually done so. He had etched message onto bullet casings that are part of online video gamer subcultures, but that are difficult to interpet for those who aren’t part of that community. Perhaps, he will make his motivations known in the future as the legal process unfolds, but, for now, we don’t know what his political motivations might have been. We do know that he came from a Republican family that were long-time gun owners. He was raised in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons).

I don’t know what will happen in the coming days and weeks. While there are calls for greater civility in public discourse – again – and calls for better mental health care – again – and calls for tightening access to guns – again, there is little hope that these will effect change among those who are promoting themselves by vilifying those who disagree with them.

There is also the real fear that political violence will continue to escalate as it did in the 1960s when I was a child. Then, as now, the perpetrators of political violence were more often on the right/white supremacist side of the spectrum than on the left.

I know that I am afraid.

One-Liner Wednesday: new book by Samantha Terrell coming soon!

I’m happy to share the news that, on September 25th, Felling Trees: Selected Poems 2000-2025 by Samantha Terrell will be released by Low Hanging Fruit!

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One-Liner Wednesday: the US flag and the Constitution

“I prefer someone who burns the flag and then wraps themselves up in the Constitution over someone who burns the Constitution and then wraps themselves up in the flag.”
~~~ Molly Ivins

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new complications for COVID vaccines in the US

(COVID Photo by Martin Sanchez on Unsplash)

Last week, after reading a newsletter from Your Local Epidemiologist founded by Dr. Katelyn Jetelina, I got a COVID vaccination. I will be going to my annual poetry residency with the Boiler House Poets Collective at The Studios at MASS MoCA in early October and wanted my immunity to be as strong as possible while I’m there.

The newsletter had warned that there might be label changes coming from the US Food and Drug Administration that would impact the availability of COVID vaccines and that it might be advisable to get the vaccine soon, especially for people younger than 65.

I’m glad I took action.

Yesterday, the Food and Drug Administration changed the guidelines, making it more difficult for people under 65 to qualify for COVID vaccines without consulting their doctor. In response, CVS and Walgreens, whose pharmacies are a major source for vaccinations to the public, suspended giving any COVID vaccines to anyone in sixteen states, including mine, unless you have a prescription from a health provider. Part of the confusion is that the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention has yet to issue its guidance and just suffered the loss of its top leadership through firing and resignations, grounded in the fact that they were being pressured to put forward recommendations not backed by scientific research.

That’s what happens when you have a Health and Human Services Secretary like Robert Kennedy, Jr., who does not have a background in medicine and disrespects rigorous scientific inquiry.

The fact is that COVID-19 vaccines have been rigorously tested and are safe and effective, cutting down on infection rates and keeping most people from becoming seriously ill and needing hospitalization. Serious side effects are very rare, so the benefits of receiving the vaccine outweigh the risks.

Tragically, vaccines have been politicized in the US, which has cost lives. The death rate from COVID-19 for Republicans is higher than for the population as a whole because of this.

I urge everyone with questions to talk to a trusted medical professional about the research and science behind vaccines. Don’t fall for the misinformation coming from Kennedy and the people he has put in place at the CDC and FDA who disregard valid scientific findings.

You can also look for recommendations from medical associations, such as the American Academy of Pediatrics.

Don’t let misinformation keep you from taking the best care possible of your and your family’s health.

One-Liner Wednesday: Update on Roger Wang

Update from this post about Roger Wang, local business owner and community volunteer who was taken into ICE custody on the way to get his green card: Roger has been detained at a New York State ICE detention facility for over two months; he has a local immigration lawyer assisting him, whom you can help fund through this link.

This sobering update brought to you as part of Linda’s One-Liner Wednesday series. Find out more here: https://lindaghill.com/2025/08/27/one-liner-wednesday-its-official/

Write Out Loud ’25 recording is available!

In late April, I posted about Write Out Loud ’25 at the Fenimore Art Museum in Cooperstown, New York. My poem “The Bridge” was read by Sharon Rankins-Burd as part of the event, along with work by fellow Grapevine Poets Richard Braco, Merrill Oliver Douglas, and Jessica Dubey and twenty more writers living within 100 miles of Cooperstown.

I’m pleased to announce that the recording, long delayed by technical difficulties, is finally available! The recording will open in a separate tab in YouTube. If you click on “more” in the description, it opens a list of the program with links to bring you to whichever segment you wish to view. I’m especially pleased to share Sharon’s reading of my poem. She did an amazing job!

Enjoy!

DC militarization

Vote for Democracy #44

(Photo by Lucas Sankey on Unsplash)

Donald Trump decided to declare a crime emergency in Washington, DC and to surge the National Guard into our capital to deal with it.

This is an excuse, not an emergency.

Crime is at its lowest level in thirty years in Washington, DC. There are some higher-crime neighborhoods in the city and problems with youth crime and truancy, so the police could use some extra resources, but the new forces are seldom sent to those areas. Instead, they are largely deployed near national monuments and transit centers, more a show of force than actual crime-fighting.

DT’s rhetoric immediately pivoted from crime to making DC more “clean” and “beautiful” by removing people who are homeless. For the record, people who are homeless are much more likely to be victims of crime than perpetrators. In DC, they are most likely to be older, low-income adults; to be able to afford to live in the city, one needs about $90,000 in income, which is unattainable for many older folks.

Trump is also using this as cover for bringing in personnel from other federal agencies, including ICE. There have been arrests of suspected undocumented people by masked agents without identifying badges, as we have seen in many areas of the country. There are also government and military personnel being assigned duties for which they lack training. For example, FBI agents are being put out on patrol when their expertise is in investigation; for those of you outside the US, the FBI is the Federal Bureau of Investigation.

While DT is claiming that people feel safer and are going out more to eat more often, restaurant and bar owners are complaining that their business is down by 25% or more compared to this time last year. Many people in Washington, joined by others around the country, are protesting the militarization of the city. The presence of troops on the streets feels intimidating to them, making them less likely to go out.

Several Republican governors have mobilized their own National Guard troops to send to Washington. This doesn’t make sense because these troops would not have proper training for the situation. Deployment also takes the troops away from their regular jobs and families and hinders their availability to deal with emergencies or disasters in their home states.

Trump is threatening similar tactics in other cities where the mayors and governors are Democrats, such as New York. However, he is not threatening cities like Nashville, Tennessee, which has a higher rate of violent crime and murders than Washington. Tennessee has a Republican governor and local elections in Nashville are officially non-partisan, although the current mayor is affiliated with the Democratic party.

Because Washington, DC is not part of a state and is the federal capital, the president has somewhat more leeway legally to call in troops. It would be more difficult to use this tactic in other cities, although Los Angeles shows that Trump can manufacture an “emergency” even when there isn’t one. The fear is that Trump will militarize cities where the electorate is heavily Democratic in order to suppress the vote in the midterm elections next year. This falls in line with Trump’s requests for Republican-led states like Texas to redistrict to try to increase the number of Republican-leaning districts in their states to keep from losing their Congressional majorities in the face of the unpopularity of their policies and actions. It also goes along with Trump’s vilification of vote-by-mail, which he perceives as favoring Democrats.

I don’t know if the lawsuits, protests, and possible legislative intervention will be enough to get the military off the streets of American cities or not. It seems that these deployments violate the Posse Comitatus Act. There is a really good explainer about Posse Comitatus here which elucidates what it says and ways it is sometimes circumvented.

If you are in the United States and worried about this issue, you can contact your Congressional representatives and let them know. Trump is only supposed to have a military presence in DC for 30 days unless Congress grants an extension, so you can urge them to vote no and encourage their colleagues to join them. You can join a local protest in solidarity with Washington residents. It also helps to be aware of the scope of Trump’s ignoring or twisting of facts and the law to suit his purposes.

Facts still exist. Make sure you are following the facts and not lies.

One-Liner Wednesday: for justice and peace for Ukraine

Image by Satheesh Sankaran from Pixabay

As we continue to hope and work toward justice and peace for Ukraine, I’m sharing a recording of John Rutter’s “A Ukrainian Prayer” recorded in April ’22 by the Madrigal Choir of Binghamton.

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One-Liner Wednesday: The Effie Effect is live!

Enjoy The Effie Effect by Eva Schegulla, a comic noir detective radio play/podcast that is sly, witty, and tons of fun!

Sharing this with you as part of Linda’s One-Liner Wednesdays. Join us! Find out more here: https://lindaghill.com/2025/08/13/one-liner-wednesday-sounds-like-the-start-of-a-dickens-novel/